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Montana~all things related

Current mood: determined

Category: Writing and Poetry

i know on my page it said I'd be giving you details about going to montana!! Well I do know I'm not going untill I learn to drive. But for every hurdle "there is a way to jump it!!" Whether its a shallow jump or a mighty stretch of one, "there is a way to jump it!!" It may be a tough one since I'm very limited on time an resources, but...."there is a way to jump it"!!

When I was around seventeen,this very strong urge came over me to just get up and go. Nothing else mattered, all I knew is I had to get out of here and "right now". I didn't know where, or why i would even want to leave, and was confused onwhat could have brought on this sudden rush of anxieity. This unseen force of gravity trying its darnedest to pull me away from everything I've ever known,

all the people that I've ever loved,

all the places i was framiliar with.

It wanted to tear me away from the reality of my life as I knew it...............

and it didn't stop there.
It drove me crazy as i remember,

for around a week.
I kept wanting to leave everyone I knew and cared about.
It even was strong enough to make me not worry about losing my job.........

and anyone who knows me good enough,

would know when i say some thing like that,

some things up..

I had no thought or care for the ones

who would notice and experience my presence missing from there lives.
No feelings of regret

or remorse.

No Curiosity

No fear...

Fear of arrest

Fear of dissapointment

of mislead,

Fear of solitude

Fear of accident

of injury,

No fear of abuse

or of rape.....
My mind kept on trying to detour the connection that the useen had bestowed upon me,

yet it had no effect on its grasp to my spirit,

for where I was to go that day i have never made it....
because I never listened to that

yearning
calling
destiny
fate

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For since that unseen has latched to my very existance,I have ignored it and suppressed it and it has done nothing but bug the hell out of me.

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"Theres no such thing as coincidences, its either meant to happen,oryou make it happen"

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that is my life philosophy as of right now,

it refers to luck

it refers to love

it even refers to unwanted

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unneeded happenings,

but most of all it refers to life.....

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your soul picks the life you are to live,

lives you are to change,

change that effects the world....

the universe as a whole.....

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This is just the way i veiw the world,

and the beings in,

and on it....

~*REDFEATHER*~
07/05/2006

This is me... my poetry page

Ive always had words and melodys in my head dying to get out.I have tried over and over agian to write the words down but as soon as i did they left my mind an floated off. Back in 2006 I bought my first computer with my income taxes. It got to be second nature to type as if to talk. With it being as easy to type as it were to talk i started keeping a blog on my myspace. Eventually my emotions would stir up and get up and out. Started to get those wonderful words to where everyone can see them. So here i am, and there you are, an this is what i write an i hope you enjoy reading what i feel, what i think, and how i believe.

with much love and respect,

Tiffany J. Redfeather*~